• It Wasn’t What I Thought

    It started with pain I couldn’t ignore.

    My mind went straight to the worst: “It must be my gallbladder.”

    I started worrying, googling, and letting fear take the driver’s seat.

    I thought I knew what was happening.

    But after some waiting, a few tests, and a lot of prayer…

    everything turned out okay.

    It wasn’t what I thought.

    Fear Tells Stories God Never Wrote

    That phrase stayed with me, because fear does that, doesn’t it?

    It fills in the blanks before faith has time to answer.

    It whispers what if,

    when God is quietly saying trust Me.

    Fear exaggerates.

    Faith waits for the truth.

    Psalm 56:3 — “When I Am Afraid, I Will Trust in You.”

    God knows fear will come.

    But He also knows we don’t have to stay in it.

    Trust is the bridge that gets us from panic to peace.

    It Might Not Be What You Think

    Maybe you’re waiting on results, praying through uncertainty, or fearing the worst.

    But what if it’s not what you think?

    What if God is already working behind the scenes?

    What if this moment is meant to grow your faith, not feed your fear?

    He’s still good.

    Still present.

    Still writing your story.

    Prayer

    God, thank You for being near even when I’m afraid.

    Thank You that You see the truth before I do.

    Help me trust You when I don’t understand.

    Calm my heart and remind me that sometimes—it’s not what I thought.

    Amen.

    Final Encouragement

    Fear is loud.

    But God’s peace is louder.

    So the next time worry rises up, take a deep breath and remember—

    it might not be what you think. 💛

  • When the Knife Isn’t a Circle Knife (Yes, Really)

    What made your kid cry today?

    Mine?

    I used the wrong knife…

    to cut a kiwi…

    and it wasn’t a circle knife.

    That was the entire crime. 😬🔪🥝

    He wasn’t mad that I cut the kiwi.

    He was devastated because I didn’t use a circle knife — whatever that means.

    In his mind, there was a right way, a right shape, a right knife…

    and I got it all wrong.

    Cue the heartbreak.

    Cue the tears.

    Cue me questioning everything I know about fruit and cutlery.

    But later, as I stood in the kitchen replaying the scene, God whispered something simple and so kind:

    “You do this too.”

    How often do I grieve or get frustrated, not because something truly wrong happened…

    but because it didn’t go the way I imagined?

    I expected God to answer in a certain way.

    I had a specific plan, a vision, a timeline —

    and when things show up looking different?

    I get flustered.

    I doubt.

    I spiral.

    But His ways are not my ways.

    His “knife” doesn’t always cut in circles.

    And still — His way is always better.

    Isaiah 55:8-9 says:

    “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.

    Sometimes we want circular knives and predictable outcomes.

    But God gives us what we need — not always what we expect.

    And just like I didn’t get angry at my child for crying over a kiwi,

    God doesn’t shame us when we wrestle with disappointment.

    He just gently reminds us:

    “I see the whole picture. Trust Me.”

    So here’s to the imperfect moments — the fruit fails, the meltdowns, the “circle knife” cries —

    May they point us back to a God who meets us with grace in it all.

    💬 What’s the most ridiculous reason your kid (or you) cried lately? I’d love to hear it — let’s remind each other that this messy, holy work is full of sacred laughter too.

    #FaithInTheMess #ParentingWithGrace #GodsWayNotMine

  • When Someone Else Gets the Balloon

    Recently, two of my boys went to a classmate’s birthday party.

    They came home smiling, laughing… and holding balloons.

    One of their brothers saw the balloons the minute they walked in the door… and immediately started crying.

    Not because he hates balloons.

    Not because they were loud or scary.

    But because HE didn’t get one.

    He didn’t go to the party.

    It wasn’t his birthday.

    But in his mind, all he could focus on was this:

    “They got something… and I didn’t. That’s not fair.”

    And as I was comforting him (and trying not to laugh)… it hit me.

    We do the exact same thing with God.

    We Don’t Cry Over Balloons… But We Cry Over Blessings

    We grow up, but our hearts often respond the same way.

    We see someone else get:

    An opportunity A new house A relationship A promotion A breakthrough A dream fulfilled

    And deep down, something in us says:

    “God, why not ME?”

    We may not throw ourselves on the floor like a toddler…

    But comparison still lives deep in our hearts.

    Comparison Says: “I Want What They Have”

    Just like my son didn’t care that it wasn’t his birthday, we forget that God writes different stories on different timelines.

    We start to think:

    “They’re ahead of me.” “I’m being overlooked.” “God must love them more.” “Maybe I missed my chance.”

    But that’s not how God works.

    Someone else’s blessing is not a threat to you.

    God has MORE than enough to go around.

    Their Balloon Doesn’t Cancel Yours

    Think about birthday parties…

    If one child gets a birthday cake, do we say,

    “Well, no more birthday cakes for anyone else ever again!”?

    Of course not!

    Why?

    Because everyone gets a turn.

    It just wasn’t his turn YET.

    And the same is true with God.

    Just because He is blessing someone else right now…

    Doesn’t mean He won’t bless you.

    Doesn’t mean He forgot you.

    Doesn’t mean your turn is canceled.

    It might just not be your “birthday” (your season) yet.

    The Prodigal Son’s Older Brother: A Grown-Up Balloon Moment

    Luke 15 tells the story of the Prodigal Son.

    But we don’t talk about the older brother enough.

    When the prodigal came home and the father threw a party, the older brother got angry.

    He basically said:

    “You never did that for ME!”

    He couldn’t celebrate because he was comparing.

    He felt overlooked… forgotten… left out.

    But listen to what the father told him:

    “My son, you are always with me, and everything I have is yours.”

    WOW.

    While the older brother was busy comparing,

    He missed the blessings that were already his.

    Comparison Blinds Us to What We Already Have

    When we fixate on someone else’s “balloon,” we stop noticing:

    What God has already given us How He has already provided The season we’re currently in The miracles He’s already done

    Comparison kills gratitude.

    Gratitude kills comparison.

    Timing Matters: It Might Not Be Your Season… Yet

    Ecclesiastes 3:1 says…

    “To everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven.”

    Just like we don’t celebrate every child’s birthday on the same day…

    God doesn’t give everyone the same blessing at the same time.

    Why?

    Because each story is unique.

    Each calling is different.

    Each journey is personal.

    And each timeline is intentional.

    God is never late.

    God never forgets.

    God is preparing you.

    What If God Is Still “Preparing Your Balloon”?

    What if your blessing is still being blown up?

    What if your opportunity is still being shaped?

    What if your breakthrough is still being positioned?

    What if the wait isn’t punishment—

    It’s preparation?

    God’s timing isn’t just about the blessing.

    It’s about making sure YOU are ready to carry it.

    When Someone Else Gets the Balloon…

    Here’s the truth I had to learn:

    It’s okay for someone else to get blessed first.

    Their turn is not your rejection.

    Their celebration is not your loss.

    Their season does not mean yours is over.

    It simply means God is working differently in each of us.

    Your Turn Is Coming

    Just like birthdays…

    Everyone gets a turn.

    If God has you in a season of waiting, it’s not because He forgot you.

    It’s because He loves you too much to give you something at the wrong time.

    You are not behind.

    You are not overlooked.

    You are not disqualified.

    You are not forgotten.

    Your “balloon” is coming.

    And when it does…

    It will be worth the wait.

    Prayer

    Lord, thank You that You have a perfect plan and perfect timing for my life.

    Help me to celebrate others without comparing myself.

    Teach me to trust that my season is coming.

    Give me eyes to see the blessings I already have right now.

    I surrender my timeline and choose to trust Yours.

    In Jesus’ name, amen.

    Final Encouragement

    If you’re watching others be celebrated…

    If it feels like everyone else is getting their balloon…

    If you’re wondering, “God, what about me?”…

    Please hear this:

    Their turn doesn’t cancel yours.

    Your story is still unfolding.

    God is still working.

    Your season is still coming. 💛